Me, myself, & crazy

so a girl from my high school has gotten herself pregnant and married with in the last year.. as in right after high school ended and our freshman year of college started. and the only thing i can think is how jealous i am of her she has what i want… someone who loves her and a budding family coming. she doesn’t need a job for her husband is in the navy and she is due in a few days and all she has to do is look after and raise her soon to be on the way son. i want that sooooo bad! i feel the only reason i bear through college is to hopefully meet my match start a family and be a stay at home mom. thats why i have no idea what i want to do with my life through my major because i already know what i want to do and you cant major in nothing. its quite selfish but its the only thing i know i want! sometimes i wish i was born in a different time when girls only job was to take care of the kids and clean the house it would make this so much easier!

i was in some competition with my family where one of the tasks was to swim across a shark infested pool with sharks as big as 60ft long and all were circling. with that to look forward to and no swim wear protection i immediately say NO WAY and they all go in with out me. no one is harmed an i sigh with relief… the next thing i know im in the pool too!!! and i swim as fast as i can to where my family is but before i get there my head goes under water and i open my eyes and see a huge shark swimming toward me from the bottom of the pool really fast so i end up swimming to a small rectangular ledge where all of the filtration system is. as i am on that ledge i see a smaller ledge near the wheel that turns the water to make sure it circulates and in the water before the wheel there are 2 frantic single striped clown fish swimming away from the wheel. then i notice there is the man who owns the aquarium tank thing and he tells me that my family has already left the pool and that i should do that soon. astounded i look around and realize he is correct but i also realize there is no latter near me and i would have to swim across the water in order to get out. so i ask him if there is any other way and he says no but then shows me how he can help. he flips a switch and a giant dock like thing emerges from under the platform i am on and all of the sharks line up in front of it in perfect lines as if getting ready for a dolphin show… he tells me they are distracted and to jump in and swim back to the other side of the pool where my family is. so i do that as fast as i can and once dried off and in my old clothes i tell the man that there were 2 clown fish in the tank and i asked him if they were just food for the sharks or if they the tank previously  held lots of clown fish he told me that the second was the case and headed back to the pool. later he came back to me with 2 test tubes in his hands looking to small for the clown fish but they were inside sqwerming but unable to turn around. he hands them to me saying here for you. i immediately say no thanks i dont like fish but he insists so i think i can give it to my brother so i go and find him and offer the fish and he takes them and is quite happy. but then i realize he no longer has his salt water tank so i tell him he doesnt need to take them because he has no tank but he says he will start up another smaller tank for the 2 clown fish.

END OF DREAM